Watermelons seem to teach me big lessons every year, and this year was no exception. In fact, I believe that perhaps this year I learned the biggest lesson of all.
I parked by the bus, the same way my younger daughter and I did several weeks earlier when we delivered the watermelons. Donating ten watermelons a week each week of summer camp for the Fugees Family refugee children was not a hard thing to do, with five other friends of mine helping, each taking a week, just like we did last year. It was a small, small thing that made me feel at least a little bit involved with efforts started by the truly awe-inspiring Luma Mufleh to provide life-changing opportunities of refugee children of war, until one day when I could do more. Until one day when I figured out what that "more" might be.

My daughters came with me. In fact, my older daughter came with me to almost every social sustainability outreach effort in which I participated this week. She is suddenly more interested, having just taken a course on global politics and social justice. She harvested with me for the food pantry for the first time. She came to our second pear gleaning. And she was particularly interested in attending the Fugees Family Summer Showcase. After so many instances in the last year or two when it was clear I needed to let her go (see here and here), the earth stopped rotating for just one millisecond when I realized she was already coming back to me. There is no greater, more unexpected gift I could have gotten this week.
Except, perhaps, for what happened next.
After viewing and participating in fun, impressive, interactive projects that the Fugees campers displayed (since these children are often far behind their classmates in public school, a large portion on their summer was spent learning, in creative, hands-on ways that represent best practices of education anywhere), one of the boys escorted my daughters and me to another building, where a presentation was about to occur. As we were walking and talking (he came from East Africa, he had been here a year, he had a large family, he learned English from the Fugees and TV, that kind of thing), I asked him what was his favorite part of summer camp.
He said, "Every Tuesday and Thursday, we play soccer. And after soccer, we get to have watermelons." He didn't know I had helped deliver them. I didn't say anything because it wasn't necessary, and also because I couldn't--he had taken my breath away. Minutes later, when I sat down in the audience and glanced at the handout we had been given, I saw a short list of acknowledgements, and every one of us who delivered the watermelons was on it. Bob. Rebecca. Page. Susan. Karen. (And Ashley had been the backup.) I literally gasped. My older daughter glanced over to see what happened, and I pointed to the program.
"I can't believe we were honored like that. It was so, so small what we did," I whispered. But all the way home, this nagged at me. Maybe it wasn't so small. But it was. Okay, well, maybe, just maybe, small matters.
I kept thinking back to that evening, still trying to sort it all out.
* Numerous children had taken the microphone and spoken about their movie projects, which we then viewed. About coming to America (they have come to America, not by way of the Statue of Liberty, as my grandparents did, but by way of Clarkston, Georgia, just 13 miles from where I live--click that link for one of my favorite posts of the past five years on FoodShed Planet). About Thanksgiving. About riding the MARTA bus.
* One of the very first Fugees boys, a tall young man, said he is now on his way to college.
* Luma came to the stage reluctantly, not liking public speaking (although her aura fills the room when she does), and told the story about how this college-bound boy was about to buy a t-shirt from one of the tables at the showcase and she said to him, "Don't spend your money on that--you need it for college," and he replied, "I want to support the Fugees." And so he did, now, as a man, for the first time. She asked humbly if we would all do so as well. She asks on her website for five dollars. Something very small, which I now know matters.
It kept at me for the next day or so, this growing awareness about how at home I felt there, the constant sensation I have that I am meant to do more for the Fugees Family. For Luma. About the direction I feel, and which I trust implicitly, without knowing why. It'll be years before I am back in New York, and for now I am here. And my mother always said, "Blossom where you are planted."
And then it hit me. The school. Luma is planning to build the first school for refugees in the nation. The land has been purchased and cleared. The zoning variance has passed. The school (with regulation-sized soccer fields, of course) has been professionally designed. (See more about Fugees Village here.)
And at the very front of the school grounds? A community garden is planned, with a plot for the family of every single student so that they can grow their own healthy, culturally-appropriate food.
And that I can do. Well, only in the world of dreams right now, but "if you dream it, you can live it," right? And "you're never given a dream without also being given the ability to make it come true," right? And "whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it," right?
So here is my dream, as told to my husband.
"I want to tell you this crazy dream, just in case it comes true so you can remember how we sat here and thought I was out of my mind and completely unrealistic," I said to him on the couch after viewing a Yankees segment about that baseball organization's inspiring annual "Yankee Week of Hope" and feeling a bit, yet again, like anything is possible.
He smiled. He humors me sometimes, and we balance each other, but a part of him is starting to believe in the impossible, along with me.
"You know how I'm planning on donating a small portion of the proceeds from Food for My Daughters to help grow food for those in need?"
He nodded.
"Well, if I sell a million copies, I can build the community garden for the Fugees. It'll be expensive, and it will need to be done right, and there will need to be money for ongoing care of it."
This was about when I told him that the lady in charge of the AJC Decatur Book Festival (the largest independent book festival in the United States), where I will be debuting Food for My Daughters Labor Day Weekend, told me that bringing 20 copies would be enough.
This was about when I checked my Amazon CreateSpace account and saw that the designer doing the nine single-spaced pages of final edits and adding the additional dozen or so photos had not yet finished, and it's already almost August 1 (and I want this book up on Amazon by August 15, after having the chance to actually hold a finished copy in my hands first).
But then I remembered how at least forty Fugees children (including a group of girls, for the first time, who are the exact age as my younger daughter) put out their hands, looked my daughters and me in the eyes, and introduced themselves in the course of that evening. Their enthusiasm was infectious, their manners impeccable. And although we couldn't always understand everything they said, the message was loud and clear.
Small matters. They matter. We matter. It all matters.
And, with your help (by telling your network of friends, family, and business associates about Food for My Daughters once it is available, and by featuring it on your blog and social media outlets), I want to do more for them. I want to fund and help build their garden.

The Lesson of the Watermelons, 2011 (Or, Why I Now Know What I Need to Do Next)